time to deal with it?

this shit is wack.. the memory of love is such a hurt piece i move on slow as shit but im moving.. things are all over the place it sucks jus gonna take awhile untill i know what to do with myself.. welll hey im only 25 a single good looking man right? a talented indivdual that hasnt done nothing with my talent at all.. just a fuckin loser that dwells in the past.. but starting to get better... i kno i havent been the best person latly i want to become better .. its something that takes more then one night.. it will take at least a few months/years to over come this downess... facing jail time doesnt help me boost my morale.. always have that in the back of my mine.. i never thought i would end up in jail its jus scary.. fuckin wackness.. this blog is all jus a bunch of bull shit anyways.. no one reads this shit.. ahhh at least its way to vent i guess i mean it would be cool if i knew people read it.. but hey my shit jus sounds like an 8th grade pot wrote it soo its not to interesting lol but fucckk it im gonna relax n have a few beers soon.. fuck this shit peace lovee n soull train

whateva man

sooo here I'm hangin with my girlyfriends drinkin some high life while im a fuckin low life got court for my DUI case next week im facing jail time.. its a possibility.. so my mind is all wacked out..i miss having a partner.. it feels like she doesntgive sa shit about me.. but at least i do have the comfort i friends i do have support i jus need to dig myself outa this hole.. i thought the pain of love was bad but having police problems and love problems at the same time fuckin sucks.. at least i have PHILLIES opening day to look forward too.. seems like im jus stuck in a rut n feel down but not out...

idiot

Now my life has taking another wrong turn.. im confused i miss my ex.. i want comfort i dont got none.. jus siting dwelling in heart ache n pain.. fianancially i messed up again.. im stuck i dunno i have no ambition .. jus gotta get over another mountain in this fucking life.. feels like im powerless.. im jus stuck in a rut...

?? ??

where is spring?

I LIVE FOR THIS>. LIVE >>> LIVE >>LIVE FOR THIS...
today feels like spring and i miss what i love the most baseball at the moment the cheering of the crowd and tailgating in the warm weather having brews with my friends n eating hot dog n hamburgers playing skate.. all this is the is shit..i miss my love too as well.. now its a new year i wonder what 2011 will bring... so far it feels the same jus some sort of emptyness ya know... hopefully this hole of mine will be filled with loy an joy eventually.. things feel like the can come back but i dunno anymore.. i gotta really get back into my artwork.. gotta chill on drinkin and other things im not proud of.. i would say that i'm over my love but i'm not its almost impoossible to ever overcome your 1st love or is it? who the fuck knows.. its superbowl sunday n i dont give a shit.. i had a crazy night at the club last night followed by heart to hearts and stupid rambles to my ex lover.. AKA "I DANCED WITH BLACK GIRLS" lmao well only time is the preception of reality.. whatever that means illl leave it at that
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LOVE DESTROYS YOU!

yea enuff said on that note.. this time last year i was incomplete happiness, happy as hell phillies were in the world series had a beautiful girlfriend that loved me back as well. i never knew that love could be such a powerful force. it took me away from my real self. all i cared about was about making my love happy cause it made me happy. thats all i wanted all i still want. n now this time around .. phillies didnt make it i dont have a beutiful girl friend anymore and im not happy at all. like a complete flip fuckin flop. man this is one thing i want to get threw but rite now its like eating fucking glass i dont like it at all one bit. some one heeelppppppppppppp i neeed somebody! i dunno i keep finding myself crying i cant stop. i dont wanna feel like this. i wanna get fixedddddddd..

yea yea

life is just whatever it feels like the energy i once had for anything has been sucked outa me and it feels like there is noo hope.. well hopefully it gets better if not im breaking down and its not a good feeling.
besides that phillies are back on top in the Natinol league east holla
crazy how they came back probably the hottest team in basball beside the rockies at the moment.. oohh damm GO PHILS!