Sunday, April 17, 2011

time to deal with it?


this shit is wack.. the memory of love is such a hurt piece i move on slow as shit but im moving.. things are all over the place it sucks jus gonna take awhile untill i know what to do with myself.. welll hey im only 25 a single good looking man right? a talented indivdual that hasnt done nothing with my talent at all.. just a fuckin loser that dwells in the past.. but starting to get better... i kno i havent been the best person latly i want to become better .. its something that takes more then one night.. it will take at least a few months/years to over come this downess... facing jail time doesnt help me boost my morale.. always have that in the back of my mine.. i never thought i would end up in jail its jus scary.. fuckin wackness.. this blog is all jus a bunch of bull shit anyways.. no one reads this shit.. ahhh at least its way to vent i guess i mean it would be cool if i knew people read it.. but hey my shit jus sounds like an 8th grade pot wrote it soo its not to interesting lol but fucckk it im gonna relax n have a few beers soon.. fuck this shit peace lovee n soull train

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

whateva man

sooo here I'm hangin with my girlyfriends drinkin some high life while im a fuckin low life got court for my DUI case next week im facing jail time.. its a possibility.. so my mind is all wacked out..i miss having a partner.. it feels like she doesntgive sa shit about me.. but at least i do have the comfort i friends i do have support i jus need to dig myself outa this hole.. i thought the pain of love was bad but having police problems and love problems at the same time fuckin sucks.. at least i have PHILLIES opening day to look forward too.. seems like im jus stuck in a rut n feel down but not out...

Friday, March 11, 2011

idiot

Now my life has taking another wrong turn.. im confused i miss my ex.. i want comfort i dont got none.. jus siting dwelling in heart ache n pain.. fianancially i messed up again.. im stuck i dunno i have no ambition .. jus gotta get over another mountain in this fucking life.. feels like im powerless.. im jus stuck in a rut...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Sunday, February 6, 2011

where is spring?

I LIVE FOR THIS>. LIVE >>> LIVE >>LIVE FOR THIS...
today feels like spring and i miss what i love the most baseball at the moment the cheering of the crowd and tailgating in the warm weather having brews with my friends n eating hot dog n hamburgers playing skate.. all this is the is shit..i miss my love too as well.. now its a new year i wonder what 2011 will bring... so far it feels the same jus some sort of emptyness ya know... hopefully this hole of mine will be filled with loy an joy eventually.. things feel like the can come back but i dunno anymore.. i gotta really get back into my artwork.. gotta chill on drinkin and other things im not proud of.. i would say that i'm over my love but i'm not its almost impoossible to ever overcome your 1st love or is it? who the fuck knows.. its superbowl sunday n i dont give a shit.. i had a crazy night at the club last night followed by heart to hearts and stupid rambles to my ex lover.. AKA "I DANCED WITH BLACK GIRLS" lmao well only time is the preception of reality.. whatever that means illl leave it at that
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